It’s incredible how you search and search for something that’s as close as to perfect as you can get. After numerous failed attempts, you start to lose sight of what’s real and what’s just fantasy. But when that moment comes and you meet that person that is as close to what you’ve been looking for, shouldn’t you be all in? I’m used to be so sure of everything and not wanting to be fully dependent on someone else. I guess that now that I’ve met someone that’s so close to what I’ve been looking for, I’m still at a loss for words for how I feel. Don’t get me wrong, I’m incredibly happy. It’s all new and exciting. But there is still that part of me that just can’t let myself be completely vulnerable. It’s the fact that there is someone else that could understand me completely and challenge me is what scares me.
I’m a firm believer in the fact that there will always be another person. It is never the end of the world when you end a relationship. But tell me why that now that I’ve gotten a glimpse of a possible future with someone, I’m too scared to test the waters and see where it could go. I’m too scared for something that could potentially be so great to end up to be so tragic.